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Kadaver started as mental therapy.


Ever since I can remember myself, I was always overwhelmed by ever-growing feelings of anger and sadness. My ways of dealing with that fury and pain, with time, became more and more destructive.

My world became a personal hell of alcohol abuse, prescription drugs, violence, isolation, self mutilation and endless sleep - sometimes for days straight, waking up every once in a while to piss into empty vodka bottles, seldom leaving my tomb-like bed.



As suggested by a therapist at the time, I started experimenting with sound as anger control/depression therapy.


Art was always a huge part of my life.


And of course that when I say Art I only mean things that I consider as such.
Art is that which makes me feel SOMETHING.
For me music was always the most powerful form of self-expression and that's why it turned out to be the most effective therapy.

Back at these days of mid 2003, I just quit Viscera Trail (a local death-grind band), and started working on my black metal project along with two other members.
A demo was recorded but never officially saw light, and the project was soon dismembered.



For my 'new sound treatment' I wanted to create something that will be 100% personal and in which I will have no artistic limits. Just to manipulate my hatred into sound.
And that's what I did.


What was first just a disturbed mass of annoying noise, soon became a disturbed mass of annoying noise entitled Kadaver.


Even today, I only record when I feel I need to unleash my passive aggressive razors.


It doesn't mean that I only record when I'm "pissed off" (I'm not that KVLT) but whenever I feel that expressing myself through sound will be the best way I can get rid of some of the burden.
Sometimes I don't record for months and sometimes it shoots out of me and into a frenzy of days.


It gives me a stage where I can be as honest and open as I can about all that torments my mind. Sick, depressed, furious and painful. What I FEEL.

That's why there is no specific genre for Kadaver. The sound shifts from Dark ambient, through Death industrial and Noise to Power-electronics.


Each Kadaver release/track is a tattooed reminder, a scar and a tombstone presenting who I was when I recorded these sounds.


In a way, it keeps me sane.

Michael K. Zolotov